Tracing back his life, the life that was painted with words - 31 diaries. I did not touch the 20 years back because I knew, the answers are there. Now, I may not be brave enough, no, I shall say, 'I am not brave to force my nerve and sinew', to read the answers to myself. Perhaps, far too long from now. I drowned in every word, I absorbed every detail. I have read them and reread them. And so it has remained all the time. I wished that I could make you feel the influence he had on me. 'Better to have things unsaid; better to prevent another person from being unhappy'. Serenity, this was his favourite word - something he considered the highest.
131st day without you.
