I stare at the piece of sky above me, locking my hand with each other and ask through the sunshine, "where are you? God, please tell me that he is just by my side." I ask again, "do you love me, God?" The answer "yes" came across my mind. Again I ask, "Is this how you love me?" Therefore, I remembered her words, "don't ask why and how, for there will never be an answer. Don't ask question which doesn't come with answer." In reality, there's no answer. But "will you answer my questions, God?" "My heart was shattered, my pain; unspoken, my soul in pieces, like glass that’s broken, the darkness and torment, used to haunt me at night, but will You mend them for me?" I've heard no answer and I assume that You agree. "I am grateful that I am here, I am grateful that You always shine on me. It ain't easy to go through all these but with You, guiding me from up there and having you in my heart, this is where I get my strength to take each step. And now, I know I should let go for there's no other way if I am determine to go on. I am sorry that I have troubled you, my dear friend. I say all these under the name of God. The 31st day without you.
God it Hurts
I said 'God it hurts'
and God said 'I know'
I said 'God I cry a lot'
and God said 'That's why I gave you tears'
I said 'God I get so depressed'
and God said 'That's why I gave you sunshine'
I said 'God I feel alone'
and God said 'That's why I gave you loved ones'
I said 'God my loved one is dead'
And God said 'I watched mine nailed to the cross'
I said God 'Where are they? '
and God said 'Mine is on my right and yours is in the light.
I said 'God it hurts'
and God said 'I know'
